Week 17….MKMMA….. Opportunity or Tragedy



Simply amazing!!!  A week of thrills and mountains, of pain and birth….a week of opportunity or tragedy… which one is it?  I make my choices, I create the world around me.  I live in the moment….I am powerful. The moments I am confronted by a mountain of anger, pain, lies, and so on, I choose to create an opportunity, instead of a tragedy.  What is the difference?  To go back to an old blueprint, is a tragedy, it is covering the treasure, back into the hole it has been for years.  Going back to “the old self” has no purpose, growth or pure energy…everything stops  flowing, stops glowing….all of a sudden one movement, as small as it may seem, can take me back to where my power stays hidden, unused, private, fearful.  One small movement, of stepping back when a door shuts in your face… When a wall builds itself up with anger, one step can make everything I have worked for just stop!!! Stop dead in its track and then what?  The tragedy of almost making it around that corner, and stop, its too scary, too much of a responsibility, too much of a commitment to self and others.  Oh but how I enjoy my awareness.  I embrace and love with all my might my ability to soar, above all anger, above all the walls that try to stop me.  To be fearless of the unknown, to be aware of the ability to raise above it all and come out the other end with the joy of taking that opportunity of learning.  Whatever comes my way, I use it for good, for me, for growth, for opportunity.  I am able to see the opportunity in the pain, I have learned through the many moments of facing mountains, that I can do anything I set my heart to…and that is the best opportunity life can gift us.  The simple awareness of life and the beauty of breaking the old blueprint, as if giving birth to a new me, celebrating the growth and the joy within… of knowing I can take what comes and smile…simply smile and love my journey and all that share it with me….I am so surrounded by pure magic, that is what I create, a magic like no other…and with the me that I am, those that get close, have been given the same gift, through my love and my light….and oh how my rarity can knock down all walls…My opportunity I create with a smile….and I thank the tragedies for creating my strength…like magic!

Keep smiling….the magic will come 🙂

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Again, I sit and come into a deeper awareness of self.  What can be new?  The awareness of something I have always had/have, something that the old me would be criticized for on many occasions.  Something I never embraced and did not view it as a gift?  How can it be, that week after week, day after day, I see it, but never really valued it….IT, IT!  Rare, me being rare.  The value of my rarity.  To comprehend, practice and embrace my rarity is so, oh so, refreshing and new!!  I am not speaking of just the rarity in my mannerism, my physical self or my emotional self, but yet the whole package.  The rarity within the rarity.   We all seek the validation at some point, we all want, want, want….security, health, wealth and on and on.  We are all the same when it comes to those matters…. So what is my rarity?   What sets me apart from the rest of humanity in this place, on this planet?  What is so rare, that I have discovered and now embrace, and use and come to know? How I tell a story, how I speak in public, how I laugh when I am free, how my way of expressing myself captivates my audience.?  My hair, which flows freely and is so thick, that is captures the curiosity of a 4 year old?  Is it my whole essence, how I create a sense of joy as I get ready to share anything and everything?  Oh, if only we had a mini retreat, so all who take the time to read this, could really see the rare me…the real me.  Not talking about the story behind me or my flaws, but the me now…the rare me that came out of all I have experienced, the good, bad and the ugly and managed to still keep my rarity.  The rare me that can see the past as the best teacher, see the future as a fun playground, with much to explore, and see the now as the best my time to practice it all.  The rare me that can love in such a way that words cannot begin to describe.  That rarity in me that is able to produce such energy, just with my sincere words, my loving gestures, my kind heart and my ability to transmit to others joy and laughter and love for self.  How do I do that?  That will be for another time….but now I am just in a happy place, realizing that the power I possess within, that kept being put down and stepped on, is actually the best part of me…the rarity in me is what makes me so me…. amazing….the way I approach those I cross paths with, so subtle yet so profound….why is all this rare?  If everyone has kindness and many loving attributes, why am I so rare?  In part as I discover in the 4th scroll of The Greatest Salesman in the World, there is none that can duplicate the way I do what I do….no one can duplicate the feeling I produce in someone, as they get to know me….no one can speak as I do, with the conviction of love in my heart and the way my smile creates a comfortable place for those around me….my giving, my caring and compassionate heart overflows with an abundance of depth.  My ability to do all that I do, give all that I give, feel all that I feel and empower others with it, is my rarity.  According to the system of the old blueprint, I would have had a hard heart, and light barely lit, but that is my rarity….I am unique, I am me in a very special and rare way…..almost can be called magical….


loving and learning and caring and giving….simply magic 🙂

Week 15…MKMMA…energy

Why? Why? Why? I was asked repeatedly by a tough teacher once…a teacher that wanted me to “dig deeper” within. To find the “answer to my many questions. Answers I could only find within. What have I discovered as I follow my heart, my knowing, my gut?  I find a power within like never before experienced. I find my voice. I find my energy!! The energy that we all have within that takes us with great determination to find self love. To believe for the first time that valuable is what we are. I see the miracle that I am. I can feel the security within of how great I’ve been created. And with this energy I shine of bliss. I am learning…learning how to use this energy for self. To serve and to let some of it go, give some away, in my loving manner. In my perfect essence.  As I study every word I read in the scroll, as I move forward in my life I come to realize how much greatness and abundance we can produce,,,through love, persistence and purpose…all because we tap in our, energy.  Pure, energy. Nothing false. Nothing masked. Just clean pure energy that fill every pore and when shared can provoke to become that which we have been created to be….simply magic 💙

Week 14 MKMMA….My Love…

My Love….as each week passes I come closer and closer to a transparent self, almost unreal, it is so real….I come in tune with MY LOVE, as we come to the end of scroll 3,where I press on and my perseverance exists only due to MY LOVE ….as I come to the end of this calendar year…to the end of one cycle and the beginning of newness. The beginning of another year, another number, this time the number is 50. Since the number 8 I have been asking the same questions and always searching to fit in, to be accepted….always wondering and questioning, why am I here? What is the purpose of all of this…and here I am near, oh so close to the number 50 and I am content. Truly content with my findings…silly ME, I spent years searching, reading, studying, living, sleeping, really sleeping, and all along the answer was not out there, it was/is within….so happy I have found that, because most never do, no matter what the number says on their calendar.

So ending this calendar year I have come in contact with MY LOVE…what is that exactly, you may ask? MY LOVE is everything. Everything I am, everything I see, everything I touch, I care for, everything I experience, everything I AM….That is MY LOVE…it is in me, around me, it flows through me, it shines through me…it is in every word I speak in every movement I make. MY LOVE is what moves me… MY LOVE has been victorious against all abuse, against all pain, against all thought, against all self inflicted suffering. MY LOVE has seen it all, felt it all, done it all. It has withstood the toughest time and it brought me to a light no one can put out. Time cannot take it away, the elements cannot take it away. NO ONE, NO WHERE can take what is so mine. The beauty of it all is I can give it away, and it never depletes… It is always overflowing and genuine. The more I give it away, the more I shine, the more I live, the more I laugh, the more I embrace life…the more I LOVE ME!!!

With MY LOVE, MY JOY, MY MAGIC….I continue on this path 🙂

Week 13 MKMMA…ME

Hi again everyone….today it is all about me. What do I hear with each webinar? It IS, always has been, about ME!! Not something I am used to, the old blueprint, putting everyone and everything first….but now with all the activities, some not as easy as others, but yet many activities, all geared to one thing, ME! I consist of many things, a subby(subconscious), a body, a spirit, a soul, a heart, a brain… a future ME, but yet all ME!! ME, the creator, ME the stubborn, ME the compassionate, ME the loving, ME the empathetic, ME the giving…without forgetting ME, the ego…

OK, so it is all ME!! The ME that chooses to be disciplined the ME, that chooses to use the tools carried within. ME, to choose to cry, laugh, smile, love, give, experience or ME to choose to sit, to feel, to listen, to contribute, to follow through, to read, to hold, to let go…

Choices many choices and it is all up to ME!!!

So how happy ME gets because of choosing to do what I do!
I choose love, life, experience, kindness, giving, compassion and NO excuses, NO shame, NO regrets!! Me, truly, ME, loving life and loving this path!!

Truly breaking blueprints and turning a new leaf…. 😉

Week 12 Mkmma…Joy to the World…

Ultimately as we search for all there is to be had… Peace, love, acceptance… The one most desired is joy, happiness.  We seek it, wanting to find it, but we have had it all along. We read about joy, at this time of year… Joy To The world….Peace on Earth…. So many well wishes, and it’s that time of the year people get more depressed, commit suicide…not having a knowing of a way out from the personal self inflicted sadness….

Not knowing… That’s the main reason, not knowing we all can create our DMP(Definite Major Purpose). In creating this DMP, we practice many convincing acts  cards, posters, shapes…all through Mkmma teachings.  It is the best decision I have made for myself , opening my eyes, reprogramming my brain and reconditioning my heart!  I have my DMP written and studied and I have come in this 12th week to a practice more profound, that came naturally through digging deep and wanting to put into practice what I’ve been learning so far…  I mean really into practice  when I sit, when I read, when I see the mirror that is all for me, within… But when I’m “back in reality” is when the test really begins and the thankfulness the gratitude the sheer joy of knowing I AM DOING THIS!! I am living what I “preach” what I believe, what I read, what I envision  I am putting my power to work….  Easy?? Hell NO!!! and that’s where the joy comes in…when I can still smile when faced with challenges, adversity, pain, all those things that would keep me down and rob my joy… When I can be compassionate and loving, caring and practice what I have in my heart to give.  Especially when I give to those that are not very understanding or willing to enjoy my presence…and this is only my 12th week, it just gets better…all in my choice of putting into practice what I learned NOW!!! Do it now!!! Do it now!!!! The Joy is within…it is here, in my knowing what I know and living what I desire…and get Joy from giving!!

May the Joy prevail…

Simply Magical… ❤️❤️


Week 11 MKMMA….facing the mirror…

From my very first blog, for this course, I was amazed I was actually doing this……Weeks have gone by and each week is a new experience, a turning point, a discovery…..So I continue, because I said I would….so I continue, because I am curious….so I continue, because I choose to. I continue so I can face the gal in the mirror.  I learn and learn and grow and dig deep and I question and it all gets me closer to my DMP…but more than anything it is facing the mirror that takes me to the most genuine place I have ever been, within.  It is so cliché, we hear and read it everywhere, face yourself.  See yourself for what and who you really are, or think your are, or pretend to be….but to truly face the mirror and like what you see, is just the beginning.  For me it goes further than that.  It goes in deeper, not even to question if I like what I see, but most important do I understand “it”, her, me?  Do I validate myself?  Do I love myself?  Do I see the true me, the one that has made all the decisions thus far and the same that never forgives, or that holds on to regrets and sadness….Does that gal looking back have the courage to break blueprints?  Does she stand a chance at “making it right”? Does she use her power within to keep going or does she hide, once again, for the umpteenth time, in that make believe place, that comforts her, but takes her nowhere….?  Wow, I read and read and read and now for the first time I practice, I practice, I practice…. I put into action all I say to myself, I show my love, my light, I take it to life, all the words  from all the quotes I read, from the 3rd scroll.  I am determined.  I am persistent.  and I continue to press on…to move forward and to smile when I face the mirror…..

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Simply me…..

Week 10 MKMMA…to be continued….

Not done, not there yet, but close….to be continued….continue to search, continue to read, continue to sit, continue to grow, continue to learn, continue to be aware, continue to hold on, continue to dream, continue to repeat….and most of all continue to be aware, continue to feel, continue to experience, continue to strive, continue to give, continue to love without expecting anything in return…continue to move forward….continue to believe, continue to trust, continue to commit, continue to shine, continue to fulfill, continue to care, continue to wonder, continue to enjoy, continue to be, me….

Continue to move with the choices I make, every moment of every day.  My days are to continue with my choices, my beliefs, my desires, my sincere heart, continue reflecting and loving the gal in the mirror.  Keep being persistent….keep being the light, amongst the darkness….My choices will either keep me frozen in time, or take me where I desire to go….I desire to ……

…to be continued

WEEK 9 MKMMA…True Love

Where am I? Where do I want to be? What do I want? So many questions, so many paths, so many decisions, so many walls…and one sure way to everything, is true love….True Love, what that means to me may not be what it means to you, or could it? What I want, what I want to be, where I want to be is where true love takes me.  How it moves within me to make my choices. To break old blueprints. Basically all these 9 weeks, so far, my focus is “what do I want?” And I learn techniques and I follow directions and use shapes and repeat phrases and sit and read and use feeling as I do all this. With belief of moving forward…but lately it all takes me back to love. This second scroll has left a mark on me as nothing else. This has been the validation of the one thing I have believed with all my heart, since a child. As a child I could not comprehend what it meant to create our own path. I did all I ever did through the instinct of my heart. At a very young age I knew pain and suffering. I was so convinced if only love came into my life this pain would go away…and the process has seemed eternal, but now it’s making progress. Love for self, has been getting stronger and more profound. But true love has also helped me be honest with the true me…as I face pain or disappointment, I am able to transform that pain into love. Or better said the pain of any sort of disappointment, comes from love. How? Took me longer than I would have liked, but the pain allowed me to see many of my flaws, and from there I was able to experience true love, by not letting that pain destroy beauty within and without, but by facing and embracing so I could see what was truly behind that pain…true love. True love can do anything. True love can take me further than any knowledge, than all the reading and activities.  True Love takes me to a definite place that could not be reached if I were not true to my choices. At first facing the pain, the ugly,  makes one want to run and hide and not deal with anything or anyone around us. But I faced it and the beauty of taking the ugliness I face, and turn it into a freeing, loving feeling is one of the first rewards…rewards to follow become abundance in all areas of my existence…especially the reward of solidifying a loving relationship with self and those that surround us….

loving the love I transmit….❤️

WEEK 8 Mkmma…awareness

So it’s awareness!! I am aware of many things, to a point of excitement that can take me in one single jump all the way to the moon!!! But, is that necessary? No, but a very interesting mental picture. So what is happening with my increased awareness? It’s guiding me, and taking me to the point of breaking the old blueprints….

I am aware of my senses at a much deeper level. I am aware of my mistakes, and move forward. I am aware of my fears and release them. I am aware of my emotions and I embrace them, as needed. I am aware of a very wholesome pure love within, which at this point in my life is so welcomed! I have learned through MKMMA to see myself through a more calm, relaxed, loving way, and even stay focused so I can still carry through my hurried days. Days filled with vibrant color, vibrant love. Surrounded by an array of choices and I choose peace, calmness, gratitude, love and all the success that comes with it…I see shapes, colors and everything is great!!!

Giving thanks for the magic within…