Monthly Archives: October 2015

WEEK FIVE……..

There is an old me, and a new me?  To keep up with this newfound knowledge is, to say the least, sensational!!  The awareness is refreshing.  Most of my days I am passionately in love with life, with self, with all that is…And with the amazing feeling of knowing I really have a definite choice.  How can something as simple as that provide such a feeling of freedom?  Freedom from what, those reading may ask? Well, first and foremost, freedom from the “chains” I created.  Freedom from the limits I set for myself.  Now as the weeks go by, I see, I feel, I experience all the greatness I am able to create…

I have found, in me, so much more than ever expected could exist.  One of the main reasons why I feel as though it is Christmas every day!!! I am developing the new habit of being in control of my actions.  I choose what I allow into my world and how it will affect me.  I am learning how to turn the negative, into a positive.  Life is so much easier.  I feel lighter, my mind less jammed with unnecessary weight from opinions, meaningless experiences and so on…

Oh the comfort, the peace, the joy,and the appreciation I get from my alone time. I use my time wisely, for me, which fills me with energy, and using that energy to give freely to others.  I have always been a giver. The old me gave, without hesitation, to a fault!  I am more balanced.  I still see and enjoy the service of giving to others, but when I first set aside my time for me, for my habit changing exercises, I am giving and filled with an energy, all at the same time and  that fills my heart with gratitude and many sighing moments.

MKMMA is incredibly powerful and so subtle, because as the assignments are completed the power takes a turn and reflects from within.  Having the KEY is a great gift.  Once I realized the key was in wanting to change, in wanting to fulfill my desires, I could finally feel that true freedom.

The new me is very thankful, for the old me, making a change…. I love who I found inside….

Free to be me….  🙂

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MKMMA…. I QUIT in week FOUR!!!

I am done!!!  I am NOT going to continue with all of this!!  NO MORE!! It is NOT WORTH all the pain and anguish, all the ups and downs!!!  So much piled onto my back, week after week…this is RIDICULOUS!! I GIVE UP!!!

Really, I do.  I am done with excuses…I am done with putting myself last. I am done with causing myself unnecessary pain, by following the same path!! I am taking a new road, new habits!!  I am going to give MYSELF, 110% NOW!  Today, I begin to create the change I have so desperately been seeking!! See, this new thing I took on of MKMMA, which I thought is something new, a course, just another way of learning…is really something old, something I have been hiding within myself, and now I will give ME the best, by doing the work within.  ALL along I have had what it takes to make a change…a change in myself, a change in my surrounding, a clean break from my old habits.  What did I have to face to realize this, once and for all, taking me on a road of total self improvement??? It took hitting rock bottom, in my soul, within…it did not take a disease, a “death”, another failed attempt at something.  It took digging inside and finding the answer to “what do I want?” The physical pain, what is that?  It is gone! So I had to dig deeper.  It was in my confusion that I blinded myself.  Not wanting to face what it is I really want!  My DMP (definite major purpose)….DMP, DMP, DMP!! It is repeated over and over and over on the webinars, and yet the questions come up of how, what do we do, how do we get it on an index card? I stopped for a moment, today, not yesterday, not a week ago, but today, October 23, 2015, when through a friend I found out how fragile life really is….and then it just hit me straight to the heart… I WANT TRUE HEALTH AND TO HELP OTHERS!!!! Simple as that!! Wow, not difficult at ALL.  No smoke screens, no violins, no fireworks….just plain, transparent, true feeling of knowing what I truly want!!!  I did it! I celebrate the knowing, which is the biggest step I have taken…    HaHaHa….wake up, it is just the beginning of all the amazing and beautiful things to come.  I follow my heart, where my true feeling is and I have and hold my true health and my desire to help others, right in the palm of my hand.  I realized that  is what has moved me through my entire life.  One small/huge, but important factor, I had to put MYSELF, first.  Once I felt that truth within I knew I had found my Definite Major Purpose!!  And it is the more freeing feeling that words cannot describe.

Ahhhh I am taking in a deep breath and savoring my peace within…. I am really enjoying this moment!! I can already feel my veins filled with healing oxygen and the best cleansing feeling of my heart and my soul!!  Now the best work of my life begins!!  I take all the steps in my dream building!  I make the changes within to reflect without!!  That is true health, which cannot be found in any hospital, in any medication, etc…it can only be found within…

Now to enjoy the abundance I hold in my hands….and work with my new habits on an old treasure….my definite major purpose, in life!

With joy overflowing…I quit!!!!…the old me…. 🙂

WEEK III MKMMA

Here I am again!!!! I am amazed at the change in only 3 weeks!!!!!  I am pain free!!! I am so focused on MY dreams, desires and wants… What do you want???!!! That phrase from Mark keeps ringing in my ears throughout this past week…I honestly have choices? I am really in charge of my own path?  What a novelty!! How can this be, in 3 weeks I come into a realization like never before, and I love it.  Is it a bit scary, at times? Very much so.  I am changing a program very much imbedded in my subconscious since my very first memory.  So how amazing to me, the realization of true change.  The freedom of mind and spirit.  The magical place I go to, and it really doesn’t take a secret potion.  What it takes to accomplish is very simple.  So simple that I just smile as I come closer to the immense sense of well being.  All I needed to do was realize what I really want….simple.

What do I want?  What is my passion?  What makes me, me? And what makes me truly whole and determined to obtain my dreams? I have been making a list of my gifts, my abilities, my strengths and my weaknesses…recognizing who I am inside will take me to my true desire.  I have a choice?  I can actually choose this dream?  It can be mine and I can truly obtain it?  Wow, now that is power, true power.  I start with my health, I want it, I got it!! Done!! I want to help people….hmmmm ego? NO, it is true from my heart.  The life I have lived up to this day has supplied me with much compassion and strength to give and give freely, with true love and caring.  So what has been stopping me?  Only 3 weeks, and now I know I can do anything I set my mind to?  What has stopped me?  What do I need to get rid of to move forward and finally live the life I so desire?  So week 3, here at MKMMA, brought me to a realization, now I so look forward to week 4!!  It is a true blessing to be here, to be part of such an amazing group of people. Gratitude is huge this week!!! I am so thankful for all the pitfalls that have brought me searching for a better place…within.

Happy to be me…  🙂

Week Two

….I am still here!!!  That already says plenty, about myself!!  My old blueprint….I would not be here.  My tendency has been in the past, to count ALL the things I HAVE to do…and I get overwhelmed by the long list.  Now, on my second week of MKMMA, I have learned that I do not HAVE to do anything, I choose to do what I do.  When I do what I choose, and I do it with enthusiasm and joy, it no longer is a chore or a “job”!!!  Living at this pace is incredible.  My energy is focused on completing all of my assignments and not falling for all the traps.

This second week has been a lesson in determination and desire!!!  The pain in my body wants to keep me down.  It is a familiar place and great way to “hide” from everything and anything.  Giving into my pain would be my old blueprint.  So I decided with pain or no pain, I AM DOING THIS!!!  I will read as agreed, I will get out of bed and get ready for my day.  The inflammation all over my body is there…I feel it, it is real to me.  My body tells me to stop and rest, but that does not take the pain away, so why give in.  Learning this week, NOT to cram ever again.  I did this week, because of that pain.  I did the bare minimum Monday through Wednesday, which was read, read, read….BUT I did not work on anything else, in regards to MKMMA.  Aside from this commitment I made with myself, I have online classes for my real estate license renewal and other businesses I need to be responsible with…so how did/does MKMMA help me in all of this?  It keeps me FOCUSED!!! I am learning how to discipline the mind, to adhere to my commitment.

Now I have experienced the first week with excitement and eagerness.  The second week with a bit of despair in the beginning, but kept on reading and spending my quiet time, as instructed and more than anything did not give up on ME!!!  I am truly and genuinely happy to have this opportunity.  To make a definite change in myself, which in turn will benefit those that surround me.

Happy to be here…. 🙂

Week 1 MKMMA

Wow!!  I am about to write my very first blog in my entire life!!  This alone is so out of my comfort zone and so breaking my old blueprint.  For those of you reading this, that are not a part of MKMMA, I will explain, briefly what has happened to me to get me to this point.

So…April 5th of 2014 I go to a book signing party, and there I meet an amazing individual, that has taught me more in 1 year and several months, than any church, school or person has ever been able to teach me….My first experience in learning about self.  This patient and kind person, took time to guide me, so I could learn about ME!!  A subject I ran from and NEVER wanted to face….I learned to meditate, I learned to hear my desires and dreams and wants…most of all I learned to love myself.  Which brings me to MKMMA!  In loving myself I seek to grow, expand my knowledge and be more in tune with myself.  So this very important guide, teacher, spiritual leader, knew MKMMA would be the place for me to be.  I hesitated at first, because this type of “school” was not what I was used to.  It is, in my opinion the best teaching tool ever!  So MKMMA is a place of discovery, of preparation to change lives, permanently.  It is NOT a self help method, it is a method of learning SELF!  Once I learn about my self, in more depth, I can change my old blueprint, changing old habits is another form of explaining what is behind this method of teaching.  The overwhelming feeling that came to me during the first Webinar is challenging to explain with words on a screen.  My past life, filled with so much negativity, abuse, loneliness, physical pain, mental anguish, emotional turmoil and self pity was changing, the moment I learned to meditate and love myself.  Now with MKMMA, the puzzle will be complete.  MKMMA, in conjunction with what I have learned so far, through meditation and may I not ever forget, 35 years of Christianity, is creating the most beautiful life, never imagined before.  So as I watch this webinar, I come to realize how important it is to break OLD habits.  To control my thoughts and my words.  To use only those words and actions that will build my dreams, not shatter them.

I am very thrilled, to say the least to have been given the opportunity to learn this material!!  Gratitude overflows 24/7….non stop gratitude for the mentor that lead me to MKMMA and very thankful for my scholarship, without it I could NOT be part of this learning experience.  This is just my first week and I am so excited, and eager to see in which beautiful and amazing ways my life will transform.  The dreams that will unfold before my eyes….I promise myself to follow through and work on changing the old blueprint.  I am also very eager to work with my new guide, provided by MKMMA!  My life has no choice than to get better and greater than ever….

So April 5, 2014, a blessing in disguise…it brought me to such an incredible discovery, MKMMA!!

🙂