Where am I? Where do I want to be? What do I want? So many questions, so many paths, so many decisions, so many walls…and one sure way to everything, is true love….True Love, what that means to me may not be what it means to you, or could it? What I want, what I want to be, where I want to be is where true love takes me. How it moves within me to make my choices. To break old blueprints. Basically all these 9 weeks, so far, my focus is “what do I want?” And I learn techniques and I follow directions and use shapes and repeat phrases and sit and read and use feeling as I do all this. With belief of moving forward…but lately it all takes me back to love. This second scroll has left a mark on me as nothing else. This has been the validation of the one thing I have believed with all my heart, since a child. As a child I could not comprehend what it meant to create our own path. I did all I ever did through the instinct of my heart. At a very young age I knew pain and suffering. I was so convinced if only love came into my life this pain would go away…and the process has seemed eternal, but now it’s making progress. Love for self, has been getting stronger and more profound. But true love has also helped me be honest with the true me…as I face pain or disappointment, I am able to transform that pain into love. Or better said the pain of any sort of disappointment, comes from love. How? Took me longer than I would have liked, but the pain allowed me to see many of my flaws, and from there I was able to experience true love, by not letting that pain destroy beauty within and without, but by facing and embracing so I could see what was truly behind that pain…true love. True love can do anything. True love can take me further than any knowledge, than all the reading and activities. True Love takes me to a definite place that could not be reached if I were not true to my choices. At first facing the pain, the ugly, makes one want to run and hide and not deal with anything or anyone around us. But I faced it and the beauty of taking the ugliness I face, and turn it into a freeing, loving feeling is one of the first rewards…rewards to follow become abundance in all areas of my existence…especially the reward of solidifying a loving relationship with self and those that surround us….
loving the love I transmit….❤️